okay firstly i cried is not because i wanna gain symathy

because the feeling hurts okayy.
for those who dont know about it. dont judge me!
i'm not gonna say what had happen.

but it's just that,
for the first time it had happened..
it become joy..
then, after everything grew fine..
it was a disaster to me.

and for the second and third time..
it was definitely heartbreaking.

try it!

i'm glad at least i pour out to some of the ppl who are not involved.
they can totally understand and knows how i feeel.
so really a big thankyou.

and for what had happened ytd.
sorry.
YOU THINK IT WAS AN INTENTION?
no. mere pain okayy.
cry it out because i think it hurts.

dont wanna stay anymore because i dont want to see it continue on.

dont wanna say it out because i dont want the few person to feel guilty or bad.

UNDERSTAND ME!

what for i say it out and cause disagreement between all?
that's not i want.

so dont force me to say it out.
i shall not, will not.

if you think i affected the mood of everyone ytd.
i'm sorry.
if it doesnt help what you want me to do.

i know everyone would care about it like why amanda cry...
yes you cared.
but if you all cared earlier on,
bothered to even like ask me in the first place..
if shall nto happen and it will not.

YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS NOT
WHEN YOU KNOW YOU ARE BEING THE ODD ONE ODD.
LEAVE LA.
RULE OF THE GAME : ODD ONE LEAVES.
SINCE I WAS NOT EVEN INCLUDED IN THE THING.
LISTENING THERE LIKE A DUMB FOOL KNWOING THAT YOU ARE NOT EVEN ONE OF IT.

SO SCAM LA!

but i bet everyone enjoyed ytd.
i can see.
from the expression from the face.
i know i wont make a difference.
all of you did enjoy.

of course i my crying affect you.
in your heart thinking "why amanda cry"
thanks then.

if you were able to put yourself in my shoes.
you try how it feels.

if you think that all of your are affected by me.
you try to put yourself in my shoe and see how WORST it would be.