fuck you all can?!
you all think is i want to sleep one issit!
i know that i sleep in class its my fault,
but you know i didnt want it to happen as well?

why did you said that its my fault that i sleep in class.
i didnt want it to happen as well.
i tried doing alot of stuffs and playing with my toys and even pinching myself.
it doesnt help at all.

please understand that i really dont want it to happen as well.....
really,
if i had a choice,
i even hope that i wont be born in this world.

wah.
i so sscared that darshan will call me to teach the class or ans qn tml.
then i call alot ppl just now.
then i just cried and say all my things out.
wah..
thx comforted me through the phone.
everytime i cried because of my studies, i scare her.
but still, she tried to encourage me.

thankyou veron joanne and jane also and i think my words scared you guys..................................................................................................................................
take deeeeeeeeeeeeeep breathe and everything would be ok. i hoped?

Today i should be happy.
whenever friend's birthday, i get super happy. dont know why.
stupid lo -.-
had amaths test today. will fail (100%)
chinese, i raised my hand up to second on postpone-ing the tingxie.
-.- of course i didnt win lo.
did the chinese compo alr lo but i forgotten to write something in.
stupid again*

know what?
this was upseting..
during today's half an hour of SS,
i was trying so hard to listen carefully.
then last 5-10mins, i dozed off.
DAMN LO.
DAMN MYSELF!
wah, i was already so sad already
then teacher scolded me.
i felt so end-of-the-world.
who can understand?
of course after the lesson i tear-ed.
sadden-ing


HAPPY BIRTHDAY NELLIE =)
=(

anywayyyyyyy,

i want to watch alot of movies.
>lao shi jia lao da
>kungfu dunk
>ps i love you
>jumper

cj7 i watched alr, its nice.
errrrr maybe sat before and after the musical going to watch movie
and for *ahem* i dont know what to do lo-.-

today saw one malay girl in the train.
she super chio.
her face is so nice, her hair, eyes nose, everything!
her complexion is so gooooooood!
no pimple, like so smooth and no freckles and so
i look at her for like 10mins.
then kay siao everytime turn away but less then 5sec i look back again.
she's ard 18 years old?

she might be thinking "blaaaaaaaaady hell, why she keep looking at me arh"
wahhhhhh, if i am her that chio then haolian alr*

ok, me going for plastic sugery when i grow up =D
really, not kidding. if i could go and get it done now, i would.
why not? get pretty earlier!
but must like 18 years old or smth right?

reasons for ppl who wants a plastic sugery
>they think that their ugly
>no confidence in themself

that's why i want a plastic surgery

wants to:

> be smarter
> able to cope with all my hw
> score well for tests and even exams
> punctual for all the hw.
> stop sleeping in class
> no need "fan nao" about hw

OR
> stop studying/ quit school (immposible x1000000000)

solution to solve the above:
> leave the world

how to:
commit suiside (no courage)

outcome:
hope to leave the world unexpectedly/ suddenly
(car accident etc)

lalalas =(
LOL
today went sch ard 07.25am
watched the performance, so nice.
got taekwando, the kick like not bad..
errr, and band performance so niceeeee luhhh.
then it was hiphop dance or smth? ECU fren, evelyn danced so nice.
all the limelight one her luh. x))
then kokwoo and janes skipping?
and the song is so weird can?!
i send kokwoo the song then he say he wanna use in the skipping.
ask me if i got techno songs. then i dont have mah.
then he use the dj song i sent him -.- he told me it's not suitable and i think so too.
ok nvm -_____-

actually was going for ladies afternoon but...
netx time perhaps.
but next time no kaya toast cause she will be tied down, LOLL, no la =D

errr, so went to meet thx.
i reached early so i went to HWS to see anyone's there.
walk one round nobody de -.-
so i went back to the meeting point and i'm still early. LOL
waited and we went to the southern part to shop.

shop ard, dont have any clothings then go another place.
also nth but we ate alot of things lo!
super much.

then while we were on the way to buy things to eat again then got one guy goes
"WAH, BUKIT MERAH DE COME UNTILL HERE SIA"
OMFG, attention seeker luh, no need to say it out one right.
*never heard* and walk aways.

thx everytime embarrassed herself one lo.
she so blur!
4plus reached home, shop for like 5hours also nth -.-
got money also cannot buy.

CLASS OUTING

sorry, i'm not posting all the details of the class outing here.
like the venue etc.. cause some of the ppl whom i dont know read my blog so not gonna post it out and let them know.. =X

the reason i ask so early is because i wanna book the pit earlier so i can get better pits.
and i need to go down the place to see if the pit i choosen has a shelter.
in case of raining, we can go in the shelter first.
i couldnt check whether the pit has a shelter beside so thats the reason i had to travel down my own.

and if they are quite alot of ppl going, we can actually book 2 pits.
so that not all the people are squeesing in one of the pit.

so pls pls understand if i'm chasing you for the reply whether if you're going or not.

i'm sorry i couldnt go round asking ppl what date you can arh etcetc..

and for your info,
i am going to ask people who were once 1effians of 2effians.
ok?
=D

ps: nv post in class blog cause i forgotten the pw. sorry once again..



AMANDA***

ytd i cleared like some of my clothes.
including those which i never wore before.
the reason why i dont want to clear my clothes everytime is because i scared ltr mom will go "you bought these recently and you nv even wear before.."
then ytd i go " err mummy,, some clothes the new one i dont want can?"
"up to you la. is you wear it one lo, if you nv wear then everytime hang here also no use what and i need to hang all your racerbacks up"
then i cleared quite alot of new clothes. some is $30plus dollar one lo. bought at bugis street then i think like too "lian" alr. and some is m'industrie de.

today wear orchard,
i wore my white pants and mom goes "where you bought this pants arh"
cause i about 6months nv wear alr.
"errr, future state, you dont rmb meh"
"quite nice lehh. ltr we go future state and see the bottoms there, you haven bought any bottoms for new year lehh"
and i was thinking since i was going to cambodia i must be thrifty lo!
"err, dont want la. alil expensive." cost the one i bought is like 69$?
"nvm la, at most 70$ not really ex"
-.-
reached there, bought two racerback, diff colours..

then went future state
mom : go see yout pants
me : ok.
*mom help me choose as well*
tried 3pants..
see the price 50-70$
like one of it
mom say it nice.
and i bought it.
actually not very expensive, like 60$ or so?
so today i spent abut 100+

total yay-ness
cause i saved money!
tops i bought less then 25$?
and pants less than 70$

seee, told you guys i would be thrifty de lo!

hello peeps.
i never blog for centuries.
haha.
err,
ok i wanna share my thinkings with all of you about going to cambodia.
now my sch's having trip to china, cambodia etc.
between china and cambodia, the price is like the same?
and china have more days but i chose cambodia.
i dk why but i'll chose cambodia.
cause i really really really x100 wanna help the ppl out there.
i dont know how's the world like because i might be too fortunate.
see, i always spent my money anyhow, going for branded.
for example, one wallet which is 10$ and one guess wallet which is 60$
if i chose the first wallet, i can save 50$ and this 50$ would be very meaningful know why?
it can help the unfortunate ones!
this MIGHT be my only chance in life to help ppl frm other countries because my parents wouldnt consider going to cambodia for trip.
we always consider hk, taiwan etcetc. cause there shopping and all.
so i can only make use of these opportunity to go.

and after telling some ppl about me wanting to go cambodia,
some said :
why you want to go? you sure?
the food there you dare to eat meh? you sure you can eat?!
you stay where at there? hotel or what?

then the last qn is like so..
i'm so scared of living in hotels but i love it.
as in, eveytime i stay in hotels, i must squeese one bed tgt with my mom.
cause i'm very scared.
and i'm afraid that i'm not used to the hotels there as in it might not be above 4 stars one.

hai.
now persuding my mother.
maybe after i go for the trip, there when i grow up i will go with thx!

and i'm afriad teachers dont let me go cause they would think i'm playing etc. and not responsible. think tht need the teachers to approve or smth first one right?

i want to go cause i want make my life more meaningful, understand?
i'm serious about it.