arghhh.
okayy
i dont want those sad post!
omg!

i think i sort out my thinkings/ feelings already
during this half a month or so.
so many things happened.
but to be honest,
i really really really struggle alot during this time.

argh.. no sad post!


i agreed with celeste that what you see from the surface might not be what the person really felt inside her/his heart.


i tore away the piece of paper.
that's not my life.
i would now paint my life with colours again!

i wanna more good things to happen in life.
so i gonna achieve for it!!!

so, TATA!
i'm gonna leave home at around early 6 plus tml and see if i am able to meet onto him.
i wanna have a conversation with him!!
how's he doing and how are the two lil ones getting to!
but first, let the fate decide whether if i could even meet him..

give me the courage to do so! ^_^

they say, you never know what happen the next moment.
it is the unexpected.
what unexpected things gonna happen to me the next moment?
when is it gonna happen?

take my life away and give them to someone who really needs it.


tons of problems already.
stop adding onto it.


life is sick and tiring.

me gonna post about what happen this week ^^

errr.

sunday
went to celebrate father's day as well ah gong 80th birthday! =D
dine at grand plaze hotel.
not worth the price!
40$ plus per person, only SOME food is nice =(

post the pictures another day..


tue
> went library to borrow books
> coffee and hot chocolate at max brenner, drank whipped granite. NICE! (:
ds lite, psp, and books!
> meet the adults and went shopping at zara
> kids wanted to have MOF again
> dabiaoyi's treat and signed up for membership.
> reached home, recieved call from ms phang, buy items needed for yec camp at that late hour!

randomn
> went mango sales first day bought tshirt only
> went mango sales again and bought 5 tops
spent 100$ on it. guilty* quite cheap cause two basic tops were only at 10$ each
> veronica house, chit chat! HAHA
> plaza sing, went fox SAW SZE YING! nice! (:
> mark and spencer again and spent 80$ on shower gel etc and tidbits
goodbye 50$ vocher
> ate calamari rings! wo xi huan eat!
> wafer fries as well at carl jr

forgotten what happened**

OH YA! MAX BRENNER CHOCOLATE BAR GOT CHIOBU!
i keep looking at her so paisehh*
I THINK SHE LIKE ME ALSO. SHE LET US TRY THE COOKIES!!!
if the second time i go max brenner.
first reason : see the chiobu jie jie again
second reason : drink the chocolate la -.-

drank 4 bowls of soup.
nice!
one big pot ( those used to cook curry), we refill with water for like 3 times?!
so many ppl like to drink popo soup lo! so nice!
the taste is still there^^



anyway this week was rather interesting with THX! -,-
because she goes LALALA with her oncoming obs stuffs.

just backk frm library
i love all my friends!

AI NI MEN!

i received a mail, abouut a story.
decided to post it up.

There was once this very hot tempered boy,
& his father gave him a bag of nails, told him, "everytime
you got angry or had a tiff with sometime, go to the
backyard & nail a nail in the fence." On the 1st day,
the boy nailed 37 nails. Few days later, he learnt to
control his own temper, & day by day, he nailed
lesser & lesser nails to the fence. Later then
he realised, controlling his own temper is much easier
then nailing a nail on the fence. Finally came a day
when he didn't nailed any nails on the fence, &
he happily told his father. So his father told
him this, "For every day that u didn't lost your
temper, you can pull out 1 nail from the fence."
Day by day, time passes, till one day,
all the nails from the fence were gone.
Father bought the boy to the fence,
said, "You've done well son! But look
at all those holes on the fence, they
can never be mended. Just like when you
have a quarrel with someone, when you said
those hurtful words, you will leave a scar
in their hearts, just like the holes on the
fence. Slash your knife on someone's body,
& the wound would be difficult to heal. No
matter how you apologise, the wound
would still be there. You need to know
that be it physical or emotional
wounds, they are the same, they
are both difficult to heal."



if the hole was so easy to mend,
the hurt would'nt be there..

HELLO!

basically,,,
i gonna blog about what happened the past few days.
haha!

on tue
night i went out and met dabiaoyi at sembawang.
she came to fetch me and we head over to amk to pick up the kids.
i was hungry so we went for supper at mac.
went back her home and had our first night there.

on wed
woke up around 8, actually for some jogging but canceled due to the bad weather.
woke up again ard 9 plus,
ate our cereals then do some of my homework.
which is damn little.
then went over yishun safra for bowling.
but,,,
there were having some kinda of competition?
so went over to godmom's place.
play with calisa, take a nap over there.

woke up at 4pm.
walked to safra and we had bowling.
OMG SO FUN LA!

bowling right, what matters is that you have fun.
even if you lack of the skills, just have fun!
and val was so afraid that ppl she was lousy!
omg. who really knows how to play bowling at the age of 10!
just anyhow roll la. have fun will do.
and my score wasnt that bad. maybe its because like you wanna do better infront of your younger cousins, hmmm. that explains?
i strike and spare
but end up i was getting lousier so my scare didnt manage to reach 90! =(
it was 76 and 68?
was rather sad,
thought was able to break my old record while was 93 or 95..

after two rounds of it we went back to godmom's place and we head over to the opposite coffee shop eat "zhi cha". issit?

bought some puffs for next day breakfast..

went new home after that.

on thu,
woke up ard 6.15am
bathe and everything.
i blaaady hell took out the earstud because when i tied up my hair, dabiaoyi will see my piercings =(
biaoyizhang drove me to sch and i slept meanwhile.
he dropped me off at the back gate and while walking i ate my breakfast.

yec was boring
ps phang didnt allow me to go out and buy the stuffs!
=(
i stayed back and do the model..

after yec ended i went backk home and pass physic book to shawnlee.
so mafun.

rang them and ask them to meet me at amk hub.
wentover and meet them..
shopped at fairprice for groceries. (eating steamboat)

bought some sushi for lunch.
then went backk home.
played ds lite and psp ate sushi
while dabiaoyi prepare the soup first..

rest ahile and went for jogging. (since we were unable to go ytd)
ran ard park connector etc etc.

backed home and evrybody's there.
so ate steamboat!
YUMYUM!

val chinese birthday so we drove her to her house and she ate her "mee sua" and picked 4D numbers.
the adults didnt went up and we went mac to have ice cream.
after everything done.
we went back to her home and we watch tv chit chat, slept.

on fri,
WE GOT CAR!
lalalas.
no need to take train
so troublesome
know why! we need to walk sucha distance can!
how nice.
woke up at 9, cause we planned to go for a swim.
raining so i was canceled!
SO HAPPY LO! nv go swim. awww how niceeeeeeeee.
i didnt want it. it was the kids who suggested! -,-

went over to godmom place.
help her look after calisa.
spent the afternoon there.
then around 5pm, we left to meet biayizhang at sentosa.
went to take a ride at the carlsberg sky tower?
think so.
such a bore. $$$ wasted.
went siloso beach and play with sands with the kids. uber fun!

dinner at popeye at T3
backk home at midnight


SAT
time to return home =(
before that went marina suqare wanted to watch movie but at last the kids dont really want it so yea..
Lunch at MOF
everybody's hungry
went arab st and walk around and they drove me home

DAMN FUN@@@@@@

okay firstly i cried is not because i wanna gain symathy

because the feeling hurts okayy.
for those who dont know about it. dont judge me!
i'm not gonna say what had happen.

but it's just that,
for the first time it had happened..
it become joy..
then, after everything grew fine..
it was a disaster to me.

and for the second and third time..
it was definitely heartbreaking.

try it!

i'm glad at least i pour out to some of the ppl who are not involved.
they can totally understand and knows how i feeel.
so really a big thankyou.

and for what had happened ytd.
sorry.
YOU THINK IT WAS AN INTENTION?
no. mere pain okayy.
cry it out because i think it hurts.

dont wanna stay anymore because i dont want to see it continue on.

dont wanna say it out because i dont want the few person to feel guilty or bad.

UNDERSTAND ME!

what for i say it out and cause disagreement between all?
that's not i want.

so dont force me to say it out.
i shall not, will not.

if you think i affected the mood of everyone ytd.
i'm sorry.
if it doesnt help what you want me to do.

i know everyone would care about it like why amanda cry...
yes you cared.
but if you all cared earlier on,
bothered to even like ask me in the first place..
if shall nto happen and it will not.

YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS NOT
WHEN YOU KNOW YOU ARE BEING THE ODD ONE ODD.
LEAVE LA.
RULE OF THE GAME : ODD ONE LEAVES.
SINCE I WAS NOT EVEN INCLUDED IN THE THING.
LISTENING THERE LIKE A DUMB FOOL KNWOING THAT YOU ARE NOT EVEN ONE OF IT.

SO SCAM LA!

but i bet everyone enjoyed ytd.
i can see.
from the expression from the face.
i know i wont make a difference.
all of you did enjoy.

of course i my crying affect you.
in your heart thinking "why amanda cry"
thanks then.

if you were able to put yourself in my shoes.
you try how it feels.

if you think that all of your are affected by me.
you try to put yourself in my shoe and see how WORST it would be.